What's it all for?
As I look back on the years gone by
and I look towards a life unspent,
I often wonder if it will all go together
and work out for the best.
I have made many mistakes
and have done many things
and I often wonder why.
I wonder what I will learn from my many humiliations and lies.
What’s it all for?
Where am I going?
What’s going to happen?
As the time gets closer and I have to decide I am in panic.
Days spent screaming as though someone were listening.
Days spent asking for answers.
I wish I knew.
-Kayla 8/27/04
Hunger for Life
I scream in the darkness for life’s answers,
Can anyone hear me?
Does anybody care?
I feel so frightened,
I feel so scared,
Where am I going?
Am I going anywhere?
I have so many goals and I have so many dreams but can I have them?
Can I live them?
I’m trying to fulfill the life I’ve always wanted.
I have so many things I take for granted
but do I have what it takes to take me where I want to go?
I feel lonely like there’s something missing.
My yearning to explore,
my yearning to be free is taking hold of me.
Just a little longer,
a little while longer till I can ease my hunger,
my hunger for life.
- Kayla 1/22/03